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so sleep alone tonight
Shu Ern.
16 earthling years. Gutsy and sarcastic. Mushroom on head. Hide sweets at unreachable places just so that she doesn't eat too many of them. Breed dinosaurs. |
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We're all sinners and there's no turning back
Sorry if I ever forced my theory on you. Sorry if I ever make you unhappy (tho I do think that the time that we spent together are mostly happy, maybe I'm wrong). Sorry that this is going the wrong way. Sorry that you feel unappreciated. Sorry that I failed to understand you feelings. Sorry that you think that you're not good enough to have a friend. Sorry that you have to hide in the corner and cry. Sorry that I'm not mature enough to give you all the love you want (and maybe deserved). Sorry that I can be harsh sometimes. Sorry that you felt that there's no way out. Sorry that I didn't hear you out like I should do. Sorry that this is who I am (and I love myself just fine).I'm upset that you think that we don't care. I'm upset that you think that you have to find another place where you belong (when I think you fit in just fine). I'm upset that you've changed so much (not in a good way). I'm upset that you always have to find someone to blame. I'm upset that you treat your REAL friends like crap. I'm upset that you can't see that we're also trying hard. I'm upset that your insecurities (or whatever you called it) take the better of you. I'm upset that you don't know how much we appreciate you. I'm upset that it's the REAL you that we like and we don't need you to pretend like someone you're not. I'm upset that you actually think that dealing with us is tiring and even attempt on finding new friends. I'm upset that things is what it is and you're not with us on this to solve it. You may be in some corner crying again when you read this.... But let me tell you this, crying isn't gonna solve anything and happiness doesn't come easy. Yes, you heard it right. It's not easy to be happy, not even for me. I struggle, I tried, I fought to get where I am. Everything comes with some sacrifice and I'm satisfied with who I am now. Being happy comes from within and if you're gonna indulge in self pity, it's possible that you will never get it. I don't live my life on how people see me or judge me, cause I know I'm worth being treated well and have life going my way. Even if you may not think so now, I hope you remember that we're always here when you need us and we're always willing to help you and give you support. This is not some sappy 'I pity you' act, I mean if we really want to have something to pity on, we might as well watch soap opera and sighed on how tragic the life of the female lead is. We're doing this cause we know we're friends and friends do that. If you feel that there's no way out come to me, lean on us, we're still here waiting for you to return. - This is me and a certain someone who is too sturborn to express herself but I know she will say this too if she can. Most things I thought of but something I'm sure of
Isn't my blog a corpse? I wondered if there is anyone who misses my sarcasm and wit? I missed that part of myself the most nowadays, more than anything...I think people need to stop stressing out and just chill and enjoy life while it's still here. I think everyone should just cheer up and go for anything they want to do. I think that we are young and wild so we get to do stupid things and noone really cares. I think that some people need to toughen up and solve the damn problem already. I think that emoness is bugging the hell outta me and I'm already on the verge of bursting. I think that I'm so tired, I don't have the time to help solve other people's problem like I used to. I think that I'm tired being the happy one and trying so hard to cheer people up but they just keep giving me the face. I think that I will leave you guys alone, so do whatever you want. I think that people should appreaciate the people around them for who they're. Cause I know that some things never return. -No kawad post from me cause seriously I'm the sentimental one here. It's in my heart. |