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so sleep alone tonight
Shu Ern.
16 earthling years. Gutsy and sarcastic. Mushroom on head. Hide sweets at unreachable places just so that she doesn't eat too many of them. Breed dinosaurs. |
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2+2 day
I didn't went to merentas desa today cause I went to oh-so-dreaddful tuition!!! I'm sad that I didn't get to see Yee Seen or as a matter of fact any of them today. [I saw Manda and Cinder la.] Went to tuition then went home. Sad and boring as I thought I would be. Still can't get over the fact that I'm going to tuition instead of doing the thing I want to do most nowadays.Everytime I look into the mirror, I'm a little sad. Not because I'm as dark as a toasted bread but the fact that I'm getting fairer everyday. Remember the half V I used to show you people caused by my koko shirt? Yeah, that ugly little thing. It's getting fainter now and I'm actually quite sad. And not long ago I was applying lots of lotion on it to make it less obvious. Oh, the times. But now, how I wish it would stay forever cause it's part of my memories of the thing I love the most. I'm out of my mind maybe. I got my muscular leg from the wonderful thing I did for the past 3 months. I actually hated it at first cause I thought my legs look stubby and short. But now, I actually missed it. Do you people remember the displaced bone on my right leg? Yeah, the bone that I suspect would poke out anytime soon so I was scared shitless but still hentak with all that I've got. I actually missed the pain too. [I may be sadistic or a bit of a torture.] I have the wear a knee guard because it hurts so damn much. Yee Seen even said that I'm like her grandma for wearing that thing. But I dare not go to a doctor because I was afraid that the doctor would stop me from doing the thing that is most important to me. [Then, now and forever.] But I realized that when I wear the knee guard, it prevents me from using all my strength and hentakan came out lembik and un-macho so I risk my bone-poking-out and put the knee guard aside. I [kinda] hurt my leg today and I cried a little not because of the pain but because the IT sick is back. I was thinking that if we're still doing IT, I woould NEVER let myself hurt my leg during private and non-pratice time. Even if I hurt my leg, I would do whatever it takes to make it better cause I know I still have to do my best during tomorrow's practice. What makes me sad is that, now I'm free to do anything I want and life's empty. I would never have to rush on a 15 minutes interval anymore. I can have the time of my life to change as slow as I want. I don't ever need to be punish for being 2 minutes late anymore. And that is saddening. Thinking back, all the pain, the suffering under hot and cold conditions are all things I hated back then but would kill to have it back now. How weird for people to only realized what is important to them when it is gone. But I guess that is the part where we remember everything in our heart and treasure it more. With its absence, we're both lost and devastated. We left our footsteps everywhere in the school when we tour around the school doing IT. Now, everything is history. It's hard time for us all. - To IT, our love and pride. |